End of Semester Update on Life!
Here I am again, apologizing for my terrible consistency with my blog. I think when the new year rolls around, I am going to do a blog challenge and do a post a day for the month of January. I'm hoping that it will start my year of blogging off right and that it will actually help me to be inspired to write more often. Actually a ton of stuff has happened since my last post and I just haven't had time/haven't had the motivation to write.
The end of this semester was surprisingly difficult for a lot of reasons. The first thing that made the end of the semester really hard was my step-grandma passing away. This was my step-mom's mom. She had been sick for a few months and passed pretty suddenly. It was really difficult to see my step-sisters so sad over the loss of their grandma. V had to fly home from her study abroad program in Spain really quickly and ended up having to do a lot of her finals here at home. A and T missed quite a bit of school as well. It was a pretty emotional weekend for us because none of us sisters had been to a funeral of someone who was so close to us. The next thing that made the end of the semester hard was just generally the difficulty of my finals. I only had one actual test during finals week that I had to take which was for Western Civ. I had a take-home test for Race, Class, and Gender which wasn't too bad, but the other assignments were the difficult parts. I had to write one 8-10 page paper for for social justice on the topic of "What is social justice?" Social justice was one of my favorite classes this semester and I truly learned so much useful knowledge, however this paper was hard because I had to define what social justice means to me, using the different texts we read throughout the semester to help give that definition. It took a lot of soul-searching and thinking about what my values were to write that paper. I also had to write an 8-10 page research paper for Crime and Deviance. This one we got to research any of the topics that we discussed in our class so I chose body modification. It was a really interesting paper to write but I got sucked into the research so it took me forever to actual get my research onto the paper. However, I ended up with all A's this semester so I was super pumped about that! The last thing that made the semester really difficult was going through a breakup. This was an incredibly unexpected end to my relationship. Even though this relationship was only a little over three months long, the break up hurt a lot. Some of the hurt was just from how unexpected it was but a lot of the pain was that he used words that hit me where it hurts the most. When I get into a relationship, I aim for it to be a long-lasting relationship. I don't like the dating scene and I especially don't get into relationships just for the fun of it. After he called things off, I just realized how much effort I had put into the relationship and how little I had gotten in return. I think everyone has blinders on when they are in a relationship, and with this one I just chose not to see the signs that things weren't what I wanted or expected out of the relationship. As much as it hurt for this relationship to end, I grew a lot during the process. In previous relationships, I had let problems go unspoken and I would just let them eat at me until I couldn't take it anymore. This time I made sure to address the problems that came up and it me feel confident and comfortable in the relationship.
So many people that I know who I graduated high school with or are around my age are getting engaged, married, and pregnant and it reveals the pressures society puts on us to get married and start our lives so quickly. I just have to remind myself that God has a plan for my future and I do not need to rush into a relationship. Even though I am growing up quickly with graduating early, I have to remember that only when I stop looking for a relationship is God going to bring the right person for me.
On a lighter note, with Christmas coming up in two days, I am getting really excited about gift giving! I love giving presents way more than I love receiving them! Each year at my mom's house, all four of us siblings buy presents for each of the other for $25 or less. Those are some of my favorite gifts to watch each other open because we get to see how well we know each other. I also really love buying presents for my parents because they do so much for us and I love to make sure they have something in return.
There is probably so much more I could write about but I'm just gonna leave it like it is. I hope all of you have a wonderful Christmas or whatever you celebrate and a happy New Year! I don't know if I will write again before my Bloggin' New Year challenge start so enjoy this post! ~Em
